Spiritual awakenings come in many forms. Some are subtle, like the gentle rising as the light grows in intensity outside, chasing away the darkness. Others are dramatic, like a thunderclap, jolting you out of a deep slumber. (I’ve experienced both.)
These are the ways that our soul is trying to burst open our minds so that we can shed certain ways of seeing the world and expand our consciousness. The universe conspires to bring us experiences so that we start to see reality differently. It’s also important to remember that awakenings are not singular events; they can unfold over time, and new ones can emerge even after you already believe you are “awake.”
My spiritual awakening kick-started in 2011 with my father's
sudden passing and a high-vibrational visitation which at that time felt super
scary to me. I was finally able to get hold of things in 2017 after multiple
dark nights of the soul, which meant 6 years of a what-the-hell-is-happening
roller coaster ride. During this time, I
was also struggling with a lot of physical ailments like stress-induced hyperacidity, and hypothyroidism, and then came the anxiety and panic attacks
towards the end of this ordeal in 2017. And in addition to this so many other
issues with friendships, career, and love. It felt like my world was collapsing,
time slipping through my hands and there was nothing I could do but watch in
hopelessness.
Finally, in 2017, I decided I'd had enough and I took control of my life back by working on these issues using a holistic approach. I started meditating regularly and it started getting deeper and deeper quickly. Immediately my anxiety was better, and my panic attacks stopped. By the end of 2018, I did not need any medication for my thyroid as I became better at self-expression and even my hyperacidity got better as the overall stress went lower and I worked through emotional issues. All of it got better as I stepped into my power and worked on healing my energy body.
While I was finding my way through my wounds, I found that
my ears rang on and off and jolts of energy would go down my spine in 2017.
That startled me and made me look around to find answers for these weird
phenomena as no medical issue could be found. It made me stumble upon
Schumann's Resonance and the effects of solar activity on the physical body and
consciousness. That was the moment I realized I was going through a
"Spiritual Awakening". And I got on a wild goose chase to find out
more. It took me down various rabbit holes to find my soul origins, gifts, and
purpose. I found out about my significant past lives in Sirian-Lyran star lineages
and hence I found answers to my fascination with ancient Egyptian
civilizations. Lions gate had been a very special and sacred portal of the year
for me (I found it very energetic and transforming every year), and now I knew
why!
A spiritual journey almost always stems from trauma, and I believe there are two reasons for this; first is the necessity of upheaval in life in order to wake you up. If everything is rosy and comfortable, we would never bother to disturb the status quo and go deeper to find our true selves. Second, lifting a mirror and facing our pain head-on which eventually helps to eliminate a path of victimhood and helps us step into our power.
My mantra throughout has been getting comfortable with being
uncomfortable and being okay with not knowing. Allowing myself to step into
discomfort, feeling the pain, being present, and letting it go. With practice, it gets easier to observe your patterns and allow them to become lessons. This
is where I shifted from an unconscious to a conscious state of being, even
though it was not apparent at first.
Healing my inner child and my shadow aspects has been a part of my healing journey that still continues. Even though I won't call my awakening a spontaneous "Kundalini Awakening", I've felt it activating every now and then and it has helped me clear and move a lot of energy to align me with my gifts and purpose. I feel our Soul purpose keeps on evolving as we transcend our thoughts, beliefs, fears, perceptions, and intentions. It has also helped me RE-MEMBER and integrate my past lives and the gifts I had then by accessing them and downloading them through my Akashic Records.
I went through another powerful round of awakening when I became pregnant with my daughter in 2020. The world outside was changing so much with covid spreading and all of us struggling to find a new normal in our lives. My pregnancy was challenging and the birth even more. It made me learn the lesson of surrendering and trusting. I had to be okay with not being able to do much. My spiritual gifts were heightened but I had no energy to offer them as a service. It made me turn my gaze inwards and made me learn to receive. I again had to let go of control and do things my way. It was all as per the divine's plan as this high vibrational being I was carrying had her own plans. Even though the time was challenging, I always felt protected, guided, loved, blessed, and nurtured by the spiritual realm. It allowed me to be in my truth without doing anything. It showed me even though things were out of my control, they were still playing out at the highest timeline. All I needed to do was surrender and be held.
Being born and brought up in Indian Hindu traditions, I've
always had a spiritual inclination. Opening myself to the energy work and
working with Akashic Records blessed me to connect to more ancient traditions
like Buddhist and Egyptian Lineages. It's an absolute honor and a privilege to
be able to work under the blessings of all these ascended masters and guides,
expanding my support in all other dimensions and realms.
Through my spiritual awakening,
I learned more about my intuitive self,
I became more sensitive to energy,
I developed empathic abilities,
I became more reflective,
I learned to let go with ease and grace,
I learned to surrender without struggling,
I let go of the control I thought I had over my life,
I learned to follow the breadcrumbs trail that my guides leave me to pursue my purpose,
I learned to accept things as they are given to me by my guides without doubting it,
I became more open to change,
I became more ME.
If there is anything in particular, I’ve become more aware of is that I could not have been ready for my spiritual awakening until it had actually happened. As I now walk my path, guided by my team of light, I feel more and more at peace each day. It doesn't mean I don't have any triggers or any inner work left, but I know I'm never alone while working through them. I'm always loved, blessed, supported, and protected by my guides. And I couldn’t be more excited to find out what magical experiences and miracles the universe has in store for me!